what i know now

i never knew that i'd end up with this life. i never knew that i'd have a social life away from my parents. i never knew that i'd be so fat....wait, i'm trying to keep this positive. i never knew that i'd actually survive my freshman year of college. i never knew that i'd meet some of the most amazing people ever at said college. i never knew that i'd be a music major. i never knew that i was going to fall in love with someone who doesn't love me back. i never knew that i'd have friends (from college) who lived in Connecticut, Massachusetts, and even as far away as Indiana (yay Rachel!). i never knew that i'd have friends and cousins in North Carolina. i never knew that i'd actually go to a club without freaking. i never knew that it was possible to enjoy your life even if you didn't like yourself. i never knew that i'd have a real job and be good at said real job. i never knew that i'd be one to talk on the phone until midnight.

because of all this, i can't stop believing that the stuff that isn't right won't work itself out (i.e. dramas, and being fat) God is there.

i also never knew that my mom would have her reality show debut before i would!