thoughts, i guess

i often forget that your own problems are not nearly as daunting when measured against the problems of certain members of your life. in this case, that person is my boss, Margaret, who i've always really, really looked up to, even before she was my boss and she was just a friend of my dad's. i don't know that many people who wear as many "Hats" as she does.

i'm also about to majorly swallow my pride....and i'm amazed at how certain people can make you do that, time and time again, and make you bail them out even though you've bailed them out 2387232987 times before.

i realize that anyone who i consider a "brother" or a "sister" to me, whether they be older or younger, becomes extremely important. even if that means bailing them out. again. it's a responsibility that i take seriously.

also...to "you," i miss you more than words know how to say. i want to see you, be with you, just hear your voice...for crying out loud. <3



in other news....Happy Birthday Grandpa. You are always missed and we love you.

RIP John Tucholski (very involved Parishoner of my Church)

the brain needs work!

i'm feeling unfulfilled.
i need to sing/direct/act/organize something even if it doesn't involve theatre/music.
my mom thinks this may be a good thing because it frees me up because i'm working a lot.
i beg to differ. i don't like not being busy. i don't feel like i'm special if i'm not ridiculously busy.
even though i'm tired all of the time and i could use a mental health day big time.
and sadly, my new idea probably can't work.

NC was awesome, however. i missed my babies and i spent every moment with them.

i miss my Salve loves. a lot. :-(

i love my 516ers. :-)

rest in peace, buddy.

Grease is dead.


blah.


Time of Death: 8:29 PM.
as Frank put it, only a handsome doctor with a cane could revive it.

in other news:
RIP Tim Russert.
I Got Paid Today.
Dani's brother, Mike, had surgery today and is out of recovery and doing okay.
Congrats to everyone in the class of 08 who is graduating tomorrow.
I Might Have A New Idea...
Surprise Trip In Two Days. YIPPEEEE! (did I just say yippeee?? wow.)

and that is all. (awl.)

a bit about myself

felt like doing this. so here we go.

i've learned that sometimes the best things in life come from hard work. sometimes you get lucky and things come easily, but it's important, as corny as it sounds, to count your blessings. i like when things come easily- i know i'm spoiled and i like that i don't have to pay my phone bill and i get my own car. those are all great, but in a way i feel like i've had to work for those too. if i didn't work hard in school, if i wasn't responsible, if my parents didn't feel like they could trust me, i wouldn't have my own car and i'd probably have to pay my phone bill, or maybe i would just have a not so cool phone and less text messages...but the truth is that life is not measured in how many text messages you're allowed in a month. life, if you're going to measure it in text messages, should be measured in the text messages that are filled with those inside jokes that you'll remember forever, that will never get old. i've grown up a whole lot this year and i get told that i sound a lot more like i'm 30 than 19. i've learned a whole lot. sometimes the best things don't come just from hard work, but from believing in doing something that you never thought you'd do, like go away to college. maybe, just maybe, i'll ride a loop the loop roller coaster...but then again, i don't see that as a life experience that measures up to going away to school.at this time last year, i'd have rather rode that dumb roller coaster. now i'd rather go back to school! and not because it's the lesser of two evils, but because Salve is one of the best things that's ever happened to me. it's no longer something to be afraid of. but as i mentioned in one of my earlier posts, it would be nice if i could have everyone in one place. before i went to Salve, the only people i missed were my cousins, who live all over the place, and Laura, who moved to north carolina. i missed my summerstock friends during the year, but there was the security of knowing that they were just an IM (we IM more than call in most cases) away, and before we knew it the summer would be here and it would be time for another show. even when i was done with summerstock, we still saw each other more during the summer because we all had more time. now i feel like a grown up...no more summerstock, but rather a nine to five job which i do love, but still...and now i get to direct a summer show, God willing there are enough kids to pull it off...but as i said, there is as solution to EVERY problem. Michelle and I were talking about good-byes before and how much they suck. they do. they really, really do. even though i don't see them as often as i used to since college, my aunt Viv and Uncle Jay are moving to Maryland and i think my parents are avoiding the subject. but i couldn't help but hug them very, very tightly when they left our house on Sunday. now i'll have to miss them. i'll also have to miss Charlie and Jeanne from choir, even though i don't see them all that often since college either. but now i'm missing everyone at school and there are just so many people to miss and not see a whole lot. but in every case, we all know that we're all there for each other. communication is so easy these days. almost too easy. i think that's all for now. i am, after all, becoming quite the grown up and i need to go to bed because there will be a whole lot of insurance to look over in eight hours from now.

i want to wake up where you are.

i may not show it on the outside, but i miss you. so much so that i've cried over it for the past two nights.

ok. enough on that subject. i got my first paycheck and that feels so, so good. i love my job. i've seen so many of my fabulous 516 people and i have so many more to still see. and yet i'm really, really worried about how Grease is going to work out...Frank says we only need 10 kids to put on the show, but i'm still concerned. i hope it comes off. like it better. grrrr.

EDIT: i really like it when people you haven't seen for a long time haven't changed in terms of their good qualities, and seem to outgrow those things that once drove you crazy. sometimes it's nice to know that people are just the same old person they were when you last saw them, and it's also nice when they look at you and seem to say, "same old Gracie...." but at the same time, they've noticed that you HAVE changed, and not in a bad way. that you've grown up, that you have a lot to be happy about. i like that.

countdowns!

Laura Invades NY!!!!= 7 days
surprise trip...=11 days
Grease auditions= SATURDAY!
Michelle returns to NY!!!!=25 days
BRUCE SPRINGSTEEN and WIFEY!=58 days