faith, trust, and...well, maybe we don't need pixie dust.

WOW. TWO DAYS UPDATING IN A ROW. I'M ON A ROLL.
or maybe i'm just procrastinating REALLY badly.

Sometimes people show up in our lives to teach us something....or, to show us that there is still reason to believe in somthing. Case specifically, that not everyone is the same. Not everyone that you trust instantaneously is going to wind up stabbing you in the back. You CAN let your guard down. It's OKAY. You're SAFE. Maybe I don't have to hate the entire human race just because of the poor dealings of a few people. Maybe people are basically good.

I saw this quote once on a facebook bumper sticker, of all places; it said something along the lines of how 'she's so afraid to hold on to anyone, because anyone who said that they'll never leave....left.' I know how that feels. I realized that I live in fear of being abandoned by people who mean something to me. But I don't have to be afraid. They're not going anywhere.

Not to say that I'll never be hurt again. Because I will be. I'm only TWENTY years old and I have a lifetime ahead of me to meet and lose people. But maybe, just maybe, I can learn to trust more than I ever have. Also not to say that I'll change overnight. Because I won't.

...but just one reassuring voice, telling me that they're not going anywhere, when I didn't even have to say anything first, may mean more to me than it does to most people. The voice in my head that screamed "LIAR" actually shut up and the tears of separation sadness did not fall.

All I have to do is TRUST.

the best problem to have

I did not update this for the entire month of August....

...mainly because I was having too much of a blast. This has been one of the best summers OF MY LIFE. especially since it started out with me in such a rut.

And now I have the age old problem....idontwanttogobackbutiwanttostayherebutimissmyfriendsandiwanttogobacksoWHY CAN'T EVERYONE JUST BE IN ONE PLACE?

yeah. same old thing. now I just laugh at it. but what's different is that last summer, I did not have NEW friends which I was so not expecting. whenever I say that I don't need new friends, tell me to shut up. because I was so pleasantly surprised to see what doors new friends can open up for me. more memories, more adventures, more that I'd ever IMAGINED. and not like the old friends were just gone...because they weren't. not to mention that I even got to see my Salve loves because I took multiple road trips!

I am so, so blessed.