seriously??

_________, you don't know who you're dealing with here. don't think that what you say is going to stop me. because it's not.

Gauri got to meet Kal Penn from not just Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle, but more importantly from HOUSE!!!! *squee*

i made an executive decision to let my parents come up this weekend. i know i'm a big baby but i can't help but want to see them.

back to reality (??)

i haven't blogged in forever, so i'm thinking it's time for an entry. first of all, i'm now NINETEEN. which really doesn't feel much different from eighteen...however, i'm glad that it's the last of my teen years...though 20 seems kind of intimidating. i have 11 months to freak out over it. i had the worst birthday ever, despite getting my 'Everybody Lies' t-shirt and my video camera and my church choir singing to me after mass, to which of course i cried. my dad got a stomach virus, but i still went out to dinner with my mom and grandma and Bevin. for all intense and purposes, it wasn't too bad. Christmas, however, was so fantastic and so was the rest of break, which i don't want to go into all of the details of, but i caught up with a ton of people i haven't seen in forever. we went to NC for new years and i got to see my babies =] and 12/14/07 aka JINGLE BALL was one of the greatest nights of my life.

being home for 5 weeks definately re-spoiled me all over again. i forgot what it felt like to sleep in such close quarters though i do love falling asleep to my darling House every night =] i hate the bathroom more than ever, though sometimes it really is the best place to talk on the phone or to study...strange, i know.

i don't know where my motivation from first semester dissapeared to...i made dean's list and got a 3.75 GPA which was actually acceptable by my own unreasonable standards. i just don't feel like doing work. sure, i've done the work, but i don't feel like putting in any effort...what is happening to me? i can't be like this. i also really miss Dr. Lawber and Mrs. Murphy. i'm so glad that i have Mrs. Hawkridge and intro to acting is my favorite class. i've also decided that i can love and hate a teacher at the same time. i actually visited the guidance office today because from what my parents tell me i have issues that i need to talk about. filling out that form was one of the most awkward experiences..ever. last week was hell, trying to settle back in and some other crap that came with it. my parents may be coming up on Saturday. i've been putting off giving them a definative answer of whether or not i want them to come, because i want to prove to myself that i can go four weeks without seeing them, yet i miss them beyond words and i want to see them. i feel like a baby, especially since Kaoru can never see anybody from home, or go home for the weekend. yet here i am, crying over two weeks without my parents. maybe that's where i can get my motivation from...if i see them, i may feel inspired. warped logic, but that's what i'm all about.

i can, however, be homesick and be estatic to be with my college friends at the same time. in the immortal words of Monster's Inc, i wouldn't be nothing if i didn't have them.