takin' care of business

and workin' overtime.

so i've come to the conclusion that i've underestimate Salve's theatre department. at the beginning of this week i was thinking not exactly that no one liked me but that no one "felt" like including me. i've realized that there are some people who just change the dynamic and when the enter the room the people that i actually like tremendously...change. it doesn't make them lesser people. people just behave differently around certain other people. i've also decided that i admire Amanda a lot. she sort of reminds me of me in that she has those annoying, bulldog, sort of mannerisms, but except for the fact that she drinks and that she's skinny, we're really similar. i think she's just a great leader and takes this so seriously. she's also talented and while she didn't get the "lead" role, she was always helping and as Mrs. Hawkridge put it, she's the "go-to girl." she does the little things that no one notices to get the cast revved up and excited and focused to go on stage. i could use her right now...act one is going on as we speak, and i'm not exactly focused. i am, however, exhausted. i'm going to be happy to go home on Tuesday (!!!!!) and i'm sort of going to be happy that the show is over, but at the same time, i don't want the show to be over. i decided that while i will welcome the absence of some stress, i'm going to miss it. i'm also not sure if i'm going to try out for Hay Fever, the next mainstage production. it's a small cast, and i may want to not have the stress. but doing the show, the actual show, is worth the stress of cramming rehearsals and massive amounts of work into...one week. and i'm guessing that i don't have much to worry about. I got an email from Mrs. Medeiros saying that i had at least a 92 average and one particular assignment was optional for those of us who had a 92+ average in bio. i guess i did okay on the test.

anyway, BEVIN is HERE! and she's handling what happened this weekend (details, on a blog, would not be fair.) really, really well. on friday night Bevin and my dad picked me up from the Friday night show and we met my mom and Aunt Viv and Uncle Jay at Brick Alley. we went to the Cliff Walk on Saturday morning, then we ate breakfast in Miley and went into town. we went to the Music Box and Pleasant Surprise and of course i needed starbucks. then i had to do the afternoon show, and my parents, Bevin, and Aunt Viv and Uncle Jay all came to the evening show (where the fab cast of Maccers got yet another standing ovation) then all of us plus Dani went back to their hotel. we had diner take-out and laughed really, really hard. Dani fit right in with my parents and Aunt Viv and Uncle Jay, and Bevin actually "gives it back" to Uncle Jay. it's really, really funny. then Dani took Bevin and I back to Miley and we watched the end of Forrest Gump. we got up early again and went to the Black Pearl and Gabby came. i'm still kinda full from that right now. i freaked out because i couldn't find my North Face (with my iPod in the pocket...) and i also couldn't find my outline for the histoiographical essay that i STILL have to write...that i should be doing right now actually...but everything was found and once again, i freaked out for NOTHING. i need to stop doing that....the jury is still out on how...
Gabby was trying to get me to ask Mrs. Murphy for an extension on the essay, my dad suggesting cutting portal so i'd have time to finish it. everyone is always teasing me for doing things the "right" way and to be honest i'm getting sick of people telling me how to be. i know people mean well and "they do it because they love me" but i'm tired of people telling me that i should take shortcuts. i actually did ask to do AlcoholEdu at a later date but i wasn't allowed b/c its run by a big company. that's what happens when i make a small attempt to help myself. something doesn't work out and i'm still running around like a chicken without a head.

i am so tired and i feel bad saying this but i'm pissed off that we have a Sunday night show. it's not our faults that we sold out...we are just talented and people want to see us. if they can't too bad. then again if our theatre was even a tad bit bigger imagine how few shows we'd have...