WHY??!!

WHY is this so difficult?
i had such a great night, a great day, and most stuff this week has been GREAT. and now i'm sad.

i think there is no one else in the history of the world who is as bad at good-byes as i am; especially good-byes to people who You've Really Given A Piece Of Yourself To and actually...TRUSTED. and who You've Never Met Anyone Like Before and Would Follow Around All Day Even Though You're A Leader and NEVER a Follower and Feel No Sexual Attraction To Whatsoever Seeing As You're Straight and She's a She. and who you kind of aspire to be in your next life but you only write that here....so...how do you say good-bye (even if it IS only temporary and you KNOW that they aren't GONE from your life...and has even requested an invitation to Your Future Wedding) to someone like that? ESPECIALLY WHEN THAT PERSON SIGNED YOUR PAYCHECK ALL SUMMER????

HOW???!!!!!

there enlies my frustration of the evening. i think i need to go watch House.