be careful what you wish for, 'cause you just might get it.'

when i was in middle school all i ever wanted was to be THAT girl.

the one who everyone wanted to be like. instead i was the girl who wanted to be like them.

eventually i let that go and decided just to be me.

apparently a lot of people liked that idea because now i'm the person who everyone wants to be with.

don't get me wrong. it's a blast. usually.

a half of tank of gas lasts three days.

people call me not once, not twice, but three times in the same day to do something that night once i don't pick up the first time.

i see my parents a sum total of an hour a day.

i don't have time to breathe.

i'm so tired i could cry.

i clean out my text message inbox twice a day...and clear out my voicemail once a week.

and of course there's that pressure of being THAT person.

and sometimes it goes to your head and boosts your ego to a fault.

people keep things from you because they value your opinon so much that your dissapproval would kill them.

i always said that i would love to have all that power.

now i kind of wish i could go back to being a social outcast who spent friday nights with her parents or on the couch watching movies or babysitting, with no cell phone or facebook or even a car to get to all of these places. i didn't have time for myself before. i could never be famous. and i always thought i'd love to be...but if i'm overwhelmed now, imagine how i'd feel if i were famous.