new blog.

so Becka's new blog gave me the idea to start doing this again. i probably don't have time, so if there are only updates once a week or so don't shoot me. i'm calling it undefined because i'm trying to figure out myself. that definition changes daily, sometimes hourly, and when "Aunt Flo" coms to visit, perhaps minutely.

i'm trying not to call myself weak because i invited my parents to come up this weekend when they weren't scheduled to come up. i just wanted to see them. before college, i was only away from home for more than 4 days so two weeks is truly a stretch. i am, however, so glad that they came. it was just like how life used to be, before everything changed and i threw myself into the world where i live three and a half hours away and in which i actually take care of myself and start acting like an adult by doing arduous tasks i.e. laundry. my parents have informed me that i need to do other things here besides study. i should get out and walk, i should excercise, i should go to a football game. i used to be one for school spirit...not so much anymore. i used to like to paint my face in school colors and make up cheers for teams. after school spirit was not always encouraged at portledge, i kinda lost my spark for it. in seventh grade when i ran for student council president, i informed the entire middle school that school spirit needed more "oomph." Alex Schattner won't ever let me live it down, but that's ok. i deserve it. :-) i was voted most school spirit which didnt end up being true at all. i have faith in the music & theatre departments. that's where spirit comes it and is truly welcomed.

i'm so glad that though i've been lonely, i've made great friends at the same time. Karou is the best roomate in the world. i hear people talk about roomate issues and i never have to worry about anything. we decorated our room on Friday for Halloween. K never celebrated Halloween in Japan, so the idea of it is so new to her and she's so excited about it. Kerri is home this weekend and her bf went with her. i hope all of the introductions went over ok. Claire comes back at 5 today and i can't wait to see her and hear all about Grease. Dani and i talked about stuff on Friday and i'm so happy that she trusts me. Ann, Andrea, and Steph listened to me tell stupid hs stories at lunch on Friday for almost an hour. i'm amazed that they could listen to me for that long! and rehearsal has just been AWESOME and i love being in a cast in which the director doesn't have to yell at everyone to be quiet throughout rehearsal.

while i'm making great friends and i have awesome teachers (Dr. Lawber, who the rest of the class wants to "overthrow" but i really like and enjoy, Mrs. Murphy, who is like my fairy godmother with a history book, Mrs. Hawkridge who can be my new fav director, Dr. Pomfret, who is my voice teacher and really helped me through one of my infamous outbursts the other day, and Don, my choir director) i miss NY and Bevin and Gauri and Ari and Allie and certain parts of portledge (VGS who beat lwa AGAIN!! and Ms. Oehrlein and Mr. Hoyler and Mrs. Johnson and Ms. Atkins and no one laugh but Mr. Peek and running through the hallways with Haley and Anna and Marissa) and i miss just getting in Sparky and going to Ralph's and Starbucks and Million $ Deli whenever. I miss going to choir practice and socializing after Mass. i wish i was going to be home on Halloween. i miss going to my grandma's house and raiding her fridge and just sitting on her bed. i miss MY DOG. i wish i was there with Samantha who is in the hospital :-( and i could go visit her and bring her decent food. i've decided that i'm not going to live in New England forever...Erica was right, the lifestyle gets to be too laid back and NOT what i'm used to. after i graduate, i'm going home. and i don't want to leave there again.

time to get back to...you guessed it, studying. hopefully i'll post again sometime this week. and once again, CONGRATS VGS!!