I should shut up already. It's a good problem to have.

at this point, it's an identity crisis.

no I'm being completely serious.

I am listening to 'New York, New York' right now, trying to get excited. Earlier today I was excited. Later on I was depressed. Then I wrote on Home People's walls because I am so excited to see them. Then I told Salve people how much I'm going to miss them. I got a text from Chelsea saying how much she missed me already. It made me tear up a little. Once I get there, I'll be golden. I won't have time to be upset. I'll be going to Florida with Jaclyn three days after I get back.

but still....UGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

I hate how emotional I have to get about good-byes. I hugged Nicole for almost a solid minute on Sunday night. She's gone tomorrow too. And I'm dreading having to say good-bye to Glynnis and Claire and Alli and Kerrin and Laura and Ben and Jenn and K and Sr. Marta and obvs my seniors and obvs...the obvious. *cries*

yet...I know there will be some jumping and screaming and hugging when I see my Grandma and my dog and Bevin and Gauri and Allie and Ari and Michelle and Sam and Laura and Frank and Gina and Joe and all of the JCC-ers and Haley and Gemma and Margaret and Suzanne and Uncle Joe and Alex and Jaclyn and Beth and other people i'm forgetting slash other people who i usually tend to see only during the summer, but it's great nonetheless. just writing all of that out makes me excited. I haven't seen Allie since DECEMBER and Ari and Michelle since JANUARY. that's far, far too long.