home sweet home?

i don't remember the last time i felt so lost.

i mean, it's not even like i'm not happy. and when i'm with my friends, i'm happy. i've been seeing people all week who i have not seen in FOREVER and it's been AWESOME. they distract me from what i'm really thinking about.

but when i'm by myself i go into these deep thinking modes and i pull out old pictures and think about who i used to be. i guess being home reminds me of that person. i saw a lot of my old jewelry tonight and i remembered where i wore certain jewelry. it was so, so weird and i felt old.

i just found a crapload of pics from junior and senior year mostly and it's so strange to think about how long ago that was.

i miss my Salve loves SO SO SO much, more than i did last summer. i'm on AIM almost every night just to talk to them. but i'm seeing Glynnis on Sunday! YAY!!!!

and what i really want to talk about......i can't.

when is IT going to go away? when will i stop reminiscing? when will the feelings pass? and then i hear "Don't Stop Believing..."

.....and i am WAY confused.