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it was SO nice to go home. actually from thursday to now has been really good. i'm thinking i could maybe be a bit happier sometimes. apparently it's all in your attitude. maybe i'm starting to get that. don't think that my blog is suddenly going to have a garden scene on it, but hey, it's a start.

i went to Wilton with Dani on friday and my mom picked me up there, just because it was a shorter drive for her. 95 closely resembled a parking lot when we were near the Bronx but we made it back home by 6:45. and it was so, so good to be there, with my shower and my dog and my car and my bed. i honestly know a big part of why i have a really hard time going back to Salve after a break- i hate my room. i love K dearly, and thank goodness it has nothing to do with her. i hear roomate horror stories. but our room is so....miniscule. even when it's clean, it seems cluttered. my room at home was one of the most welcome sights...ever. my dad went and picked up take out while i showered (WITHOUT FLIP FLOPS!) and then we ate around our own dinner table like a normal family. i love going out to eat, but sometimes even i like eating at home, especially when you haven't been there in a while. i then went over to Jaclyn's and we played guitar hero for a while. i absolutely ADORE guitar hero- i kind of want a game console just so i can play it regularly. i was able to get to bed by 12:45, earlier on the weekend than during the week. amazing.

on Saturday i got my hair cut, then did some homey errands around Locust Valley, then went and picked up Bevin. we met my mom at the Roslyn theatre and we FINALLY saw Juno, which was amazing. after the movie we went home and piled in the car to go to...NYC! we ate at Ellen's with my aunt and uncle, which could be my new fav place. Bevin slept over and we went to bed at a reasonable hour, for us anyway. Sunday i got to go to choir, then after Mass i had lunch with Molly and Greg, which was really great. went home, visited my grandmother from my dad's side in her rehab home. she's been sick for a while and i was pretty glad to see her looking better. we doubled back and met my grandma (yes, two grandmas in one day) and Andy for dinner at La Ginestra. another great day at home :-) today i essentially wondered where the hell the weekend went before we headed back to Salve. my parents and i had dinner and now i'm back.

i really hope that this will be a better week. it's not about Salve, because i know that i made the right college choice. i'm dreading going back to the grind. my mom said to me before, 'think of the satisfaction that you get after working hard for those grades!' i barely feel it anymore. a good grade constitutes relief, that i can have fun for another couple of days until the next test comes along. a bad grade means that i'm, well, sometimes it feels like i'm no good.

i REALLY need to change my attitude. i'm working it, i promise. i really am. i can't believe how many people have stood by me in spite of my unreasonable attitude.

i need to add one side note.......wait for it.....THE WGA STRIKE IS OVER! HOUSE ISN'T DEAD!!!!! even though i have to wait for him for a few more months, at least he'll be BACK!!!! *does victory dance*