does anyone know the answer to the meaning of life??

or at least, how to be in two places at once??

in the movie A Walk To Remember, Mandy Moore's character Jamie says that she always wished that she could be in two places at once. Jamie's boyfriend takes her to the state line and has her place one foot in each state, thereby being in two places at once. i so wish it was that simple. life would be so much easier if i....a) didn't think so much (yes, that IS a facebook group), b) wasn't so emotional, and most importantly, c), if i could be in two places at once. everyone and their brothers is filling up the month of March (which, might i add, happens the day after tomorrow and will end February for another year. can i get an Amen?) and everything is happening on the same few days. it's at home while i'm on break, and it's here at Salve. i can't sing in the madrigals cabaret dinner because it's one of the same nights as the campus ministry retreat...which i was determined to be involved with this semester. it was the main reason why i didn't audition for Hay Fever in April. i couldn't go on the fall retreat because of Maccers rehearsal. according to some, i desperately need a retreat.

but scheduling conflicts aren't the only reason why i want to be in two places at once. i don't want to go home right now. i like it here. but i want to be home too. this double life thing is really exhausting. whenever i'm in one place i miss whoever is part of my life at the other place. i would like to just combine it, somehow. and yet i don't want to be one of those people who goes home every weekend. i live too far away for that, but i also have gotten closer to people as a result of not going home too often. i can't wait to drive my car and sleep in my bed and not eat stupid frozen dinners for almost two weeks. yet that person, the person who i can't get out of my head, probably because he's supposed to be there, is here. i hope he stays a while and doesn't go anywhere anytime soon. i've honestly never felt like this before about anyone and it scares me a lot.

i'm going to visit Gauri this weekend!!!!!!! we're going to see 'Anything Goes' and reminisce about the old days. that will make me feel as though, just maybe, i can be in two places at the same time.