Gene Kelly is wrong...there is nothing fun about singing in the rain.

i think it's been raining for two days. no joke. :-( what a great two days for someone who recently discovered that she may really have seasonal affective disorder. i will say this, i have the most amazing friends in the world. my emotions are raw as they always in february due to traumatic experiences and due to seasonal affective disorder. not to mention an added emotion that up until now i've never felt before because i didn't come to college planning to fall for anyone. and through it all, my friends aren't going anywhere. Claire and Rachel whipped me into shape and yet they still love me. Bevin was listening to 'umbrella' last night and she told me that i'd always be under her umbrella because she'd always be there for me. Dani continues to be Wilson. Ann knows how to get me to smile. Gauri makes me laugh and laugh and laugh and remember all of the good old days. if i were them, i would have cut me out by now. i didn't realize how mad at the world i'd gotten. i still am, i guess, but i also was never one of those 'live laugh love' kind of people and now i think maybe i should be. i could possibly take some time for myself instead of worrying about shit all of the time. and my parents are in it because they care. the amount of time that my mother spends on the phone with me is uncanny, mainly because i can trust her completely. she's a saint, my mother. she's seen me at my worst and she hasn't dropped me at the roadside for the stork to take back with him.

i still, however, LOATHE this weather.

i also have to deal with what i'm going to do about My Person. i just can't help myself.......i think i'm falling for him.