thank you, social psych.

so tomorrow i have a test in social psych...and we're talking about whether or not we are all truly better than average.

apparently, people all tend to describe themselves as better than average...so does that mean that you're average if you describe yourself as better than average? I always thought i was above average..and then i got my VIA paper back today. now, granted, i know that a C is average (and a passing grade that many people would be happy with...) but i don't think of a C is average. B is average. for me. it's not awesome. and I got a B. a straight up 85. i worked my ass off on that damned thing. and people who did it the night before/the day of did as well and some were even better. HOW IS THAT FAIR? isn't it all about hard work? GOOD OLE FASHIONED HARD WORK? HOW COME NO ONE VALUES THAT ANYMORE? (and when did i become my father?)and i even started it ahead of time, like my mother always prods me to do AND LOOK WHAT HAPPENED. HA.

but now i have myself thinking (which is NEVER good), and i always thought myself to be better than average. beyond better than average. i couldn't deal with just being average. that's probably one of my greatest fears. i'm a Sigma Phi Sigma candidate, for crying out loud. at least someone thinks i'm better than average (other than my parents, but they have to say that...)

i must be above average because i take things seriously (though some would tell you that i take certain things too seriously). no one takes anything seriously anymore, not even professors. i should be thankful that Dr. LoPresti gave me the 85 i deserve, i guess. at least he gets it. classmates don't take schoolwork seriously. people don't participate. entire class periods become wasted. and presentations are nothing more than people reading from a piece of paper. not to mention that no one cares about turning things in on time...when my computer crashed today, i went around looking for the best possible solution. most people would be passive about it. i almost cried. i suffered no penalty, because i have a good track record.

and then there's chorus practice. people leave early, don't show up at all, come late, don't sing, talk, text, you name it. now i'm not saying that i've never done any of these things, because i have. but i try really, really hard to not be a repeat offender. it's far too laid back for my taste. therefore, i'm ABOVE AVERAGE.

i should really get back to studying that i complain so much about people not doing...