SURPRISE!

sometimes i like surprises...like surprise parties and surprise presents and surprise hugs and even surprise visits.

but...aside from that i'm not really a fan of surprises. i need to be in control. as i just said to Michelle, i'd be very, very happy if everyone and their brothers let me know where they were all of the time. i don't like it when i don't know what i'm doing (though i'll say things like 'i can't think that far ahead' but i tend to know what i'm up to before it happens) and i don't like it when i don't know what people are doing. even when i was a kid, i didn't like it when someone was picking me up from school or an activity that wasn't my mother (unless it was my dad and he got home from work early)..if i didn't know in advance that that person was coming to get me.

ergo...today was quite a surprise. and not the kind that makes me happy. the kind that sends me through a loop. and yet, at the same time, i know i shouldn't be happy....
......but i guess i kind of am. ;-)