so, so close.

it's been a while since my last post.

so there are only FOUR days and FOUR finals keeping me from the 516. that kinda makes me excited. incidentally, i wasn't that excited last week. i'm going to miss my friends a lot, and i'm going to miss That Person Who I Still Haven't Told How I Feel About Him. Dani had a lot on her plate this week too and so does Rachel, and i was trying to deal with some stuff at home, so all of that plus two concerts and getting ready for finals equals a long time since i've last posted.

now, however, i'm excited for going home. i got one final out of the way today--history--and amazingly, i was nervous for it. i love history and i shouldn't have been nervous, but since i only got a B- on the last paper (worth 15% of my grade) i did what i ususally do and i flipped out. i realized that i would have done better had the paper not been due the day after closing night of Maccers, meaning it was due after seven shows in five days and three tests and another paper and half was written at 3am. Mrs. Murphy realized that too, but unfortunately she couldn't do anythng about it. the final was not bad at all. the only thing that i was completely clueless about was the first multiple question, aka the very first question on the final. i got a bad feeling about it but then i read the rest of the questions and i felt sort of relieved. after my seven page essay and four id's i felt even better. i was the last person to finish, of course, but i actually finished in the time allotted! i almost had a panic attack last night and Rachel talked me through it, the way that Mom does.

i need to talk about the concert, because that was what finally put me in the Christmas spirit. after we sang, Don invited a group of people on stage to sing with us who participate in a program called Learning Unlimited. we all sang Christmas carols together, and of course, i cried. Dani ran to her mom and got me a tissue on Friday night! then Dani and Meghan and I went out to eat at Brick Alley with Dani's parents, who are so much like my parents that it cracked me up. they hold hands like my parents do, they wisecrack with each other like my parents do, and Dani's mom asked her why she didn't have an asterix next to her name in the concert program, indicating that she was a member of mads. my mom would have done the same thing.

on Saturday night after the concert, my parents took a bunch of us out to celebrate my birthday a week early because i'm not going to see everyone on my birthday. and we had such a blast, even at the late hour. Claire and Rachel gave me pizza rolls, a frappuccino, and a hershey bar and they made me a funny video of them singing "happy birthday." and once again, I cried when my dessert came out and everyone sang. it's weird..it doesn't seem like my last birthday was a year ago. i only have a week left of being 18...but more importantly, i only have FOUR DAYS until i go home for FIVE WEEKS! and...I'M GOING TO BE HOME ON MY BIRTHDAY!!!! and...i'm going to get to go to CHOIR on my birthday! i do realize that i'm not going to have a second to breathe from now until December 26th....but i can't even express how freakin' excited i am.

i should really get to studying for my Bio final tomorrow...i still have to get those out of the way, remember??